Lord Voldamin vs The Ring

Today I've been talking here and there about 2PM and editing my last post about them and adding things again and again. Now it's time to get back with Changmin boy.

What happened with him?

Sharingyoochun team has just posted a spazz titled Lord Voldamin vs The Ring.The pictures are hilarious. Totally answered my question about 'why this boy looked like he wanted to kill someone AGAIN'.

Well, it seems like Changmin will always have a performance with wanting-to-kill-someone look for every song.. After Keep Your Head Down, now Before U Go.. Wonder why Maximum didn't have one? LOL.

Anyways, I'm still your fan, Voldamin!
 

"Selamat malam, kami 2PM!"

So. I. did. go. to. JIExpo. last. night.
And it was... incredible. Crowd-nya parah. Sound systemnya mantap. And of course, 2PM IS HOT!

Sebenernya mereka nggak terlalu wah dan nggak segitu outstandingnya sih. Mungkin malah standar penampilan mereka di Inki-Mubank-Mucore, tapi gue puas. Karena mereka tampil all out, mereka excited, dan wajah-wajah mereka jelas menunjukkan kalo mereka senang dan enjoy tampil di sini. Jauuuh beda banget sama yang tampil waktu itu di Tendoor *nunjuk ke yang acaranya ditayangin di TVRI*


Mungkin nggak adil kalo gue ngebandingin penampilannya 2PM dan SHINee waktu di Jakarta. SHINee waktu itu nggak didukung dengan promotor, lokasi, dan sound system yang mantap. Kondisi mereka juga emang lagi nggak fit sepenuhnya. Lain ceritanya sama 2PM yang (menurut tebakan gue) jadwalnya lagi sedikit longgar karena debut dan aktivitas di Jepangnya semua ditunda.

Buat gue, yang paling dazzling semalem itu Chansung dan Junho. Mereka berdua rambutnya balik item lagi. Junho rambutnya agak lebih panjang dari biasanya dia kemaren-kemaren. Kerjaannya sepanjang malem flashing eye-smile melulu.. Entah berapa orang dah yang meleleh. Chans rambutnya pendek biasa aja, tapiiiii... Malem itu membuktikan bahwa beast sesungguhnya di 2PM tiada lain adalah our old maknae General Hwang. Sebenernya dia tidak melakukan ripping atau aksi-aksi gila lainnya--dia cuma ngelepas bajunya (rompi) aja trus dilempar ke penonton--tapi, malem itu Channie WOW banget.

Wooyoung? Hmm, sumpah itu orang emang nggak pernah berhenti minta digampar :D  Setelah bareng-bareng mereka bilang, "Selamat malam, kami 2PM!" trus Junho mulai "Hi, I'm Junho!" dilanjutin "Hi, I'm Chansung!" "Hi, I'm Junsu!", Wooyoung sempet ngambil jeda sejenak sebelum bilang, "Hi, I'm Jason." Sumpah. minta. digorok. Trus waktu nyanyi dia maju ke pojok kanan panggung, jongkok di situ, flirting. Ampun dah. Bener-bener.


Kalo ada yang bilang Junsu itu ganteng, tentu orang-orang cuma bisa cengengesan doang hahahaha. Tapi semalem dia manis lho. Bohonglah kalo gue bilang dia cakep banget melebihi member lain, tapi dia tetep cakep kok. Junsu sempet maju ke pinggir depan panggung dan nyalamin penonton yang di depan. Shooot. Gue pikir Junsu cuma maju begitu aja, tapi menurut temen gue yang dapet di tengah-tengah depan panggung, Junsu maju ke depan, nunjuk-nunjuk entah ke mana gitu, and licked his lips. TWICE. My goodness. It was Kim Junsu doing that. I wouldn't make a fuss if it was Taecyeon or Chansung or Wooyoung or Junho. But man, it's Kim Junsu! /faint /wake up /faint again

Gara-gara Wooyoung maju ke pojok kanan panggung, Junho juga maju ke pojok kiri panggung dan nyanyi sambil jongkok sebentar. Dia nggak flirting kayak Wooyoung, no, dia cuma ngelepas bajunya rompi terus dilempar ke penonton. Oh. Junho.

Bagaimana dengan Taeguk Wangja, Nichkhun? Dia mah ganteng seperti biasa, tapi ya gitu, nothing special buat gue karena dia emang udah biasa begitu. Cuma ternyata Khun itu putih banget. Asli. Putih banget. Kemaren yang banyak ngomong dia sama Taecyeon (iyalah, kan yang jago English mereka).


Lalu akang Taecyeon tersayang? Rambutnya nggak hitam grr. Tapi nggak terlalu cokelat muda yang menyebalkan itu, nggak. Rambutnya kemaren rada cokelat tua. Tapi tetep aja bikin dia kalah sekseh dari Chans. Taec seperti biasa menjadi 'leader' who did the most conversation. He led the talk part. Sebelum berangkat ke konser itu, temen-temen gue nggak ada yang ngeributin soal Taecyeon. Yang diributin ya Wooyoung, Junho, Nichkhun. Eh tau-tau hari ini, di facebook kita rebutan Ok Taecyeon. My goodness. Dorky Taec, you captured everyone's heart even though you did nothing special last night. I'm kind of disappointed he didn't rip his shirt :/

Total 2PM tampil sekitar 20 menit. Bawain I'll be Back,trus talk sebentar, ngajarin "When I say '2Pi' you say 'Em'~"--Taecyeon yang mimpin, trus bawain Niga Mibta (I Hate You), Heartbeat, dan 10 Out of 10. NO WITHOUT U. Nangis gue. Padahal itu yang paling gue tunggu-tunggu. Pasti gara-gara Heartbeat, grrr (karena mereka jarang banget bawain Heartbeat barengan sama Without U, pasti cuma salah satunya aja). Kostum mereka biasa aja, nothing spectacular, kaos tanpa lengan warna hitam tapi ada beberapa yang pake kaos lengan pendek hitam dan rompi hitam. Khun pake kaos tanpa lengan.


It was such an entertaining performance. Kecuali untuk bagian dorong-dorongan dan antriannya. Itu parah. Tapi masih bisa ditolerir. Satu lagi yang nggak bisa gue lupakan dari semalem adalah,

"*namabinatang* JUNSU NGAPAIN DI SANA?? *namabinatangyangsama* JUNSU CAKEP BANGET!!"

Gue bingung, itu fangirl sebenernya lagi muji atau ngebash Junsu sih? :D


Oh, dan ini diupload di yfrog-nya SoundRhythm dengan caption yang bikin sakit hati: 'Anyone know this? #BBLive' 

I really want to smack the uploader grr!

I kind of regret that it was 2PM that Blackberry brought here. I bet it would be much more fun (for me) if it was 2AM! Nggak akan ada dorong-dorongan, para ababil pun tiada, dan suasana akan sangat menyenangkan karena pasti gue bisa menikmati lagu-lagu ballad nan menenangkan mereka dengan jernih (karena nggak ada jeritan-jeritan ababil). Thank God it's 2PM! :D

END NOTES:

I have just realized that last night Junho totally looked like Jung Jinwoon in his This Song/Confession of A Friend time. Oh, and I say Jinwoon is my bias /smackmyownhead

And I still have the wristband on my left hand. It's not because I don't want to take it off; I can't take it off in the fact xD

... ..

If you feel burdened by me only looking at you, I will leave now
If my uncontrollable emotions have bothered you, I will back off now

I wondered if you might just fly away from my side
I couldn’t even rest for a day or breathe a sigh of relief
I didn’t know at all that these dumb obsessions of mine would hurt you

Just know before you go that I was the one man who loved you only
I was a stupid idiot who couldn’t even protect you because I was so foolish
You might suffer more and collapse if you stay by my side until the end
I did the right thing, someone who can free you will come to your side, will come to your side

I’ll stop making any trivial excuses so don’t make that face (It’s sad)
I simply wanted to close my lips and wish for your happiness
It’s not like that, no no no no no

The day I shielded and breathed on your cold hands due to the cold wind
The first kiss we shared for the first time in a year as I embraced you tightly
I ended up giving myself away, it’s always like that

Thanks for giving me the happy memories
You forget them and live, you forgot everything
Don’t look at me with a worried stare, I’m okay
The scars of this heart will heal one day
I will also meet a good person one day
Forget it! That’s right, block it all out and go quickly
Before I change my decision again and hold you back 

Like a habit, I might just call you without realizing it
Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello?
Even when I stand outside your house
Because I miss you so much, you treat me coldly

그대만 바라보는 것이 부담스럽다고 느낀다면 난 이제 그만 떠날게
내 감정을 다스리지 못해 그댈 괴롭게 했던 거라면 이제 난 물러날게

난 그대가 훅-하고 내 곁에서 날아가 버릴까
단 하루도 휴-하고 쉴 수조차 없었단 말야
내 이런 바보 같은 집착이 널 아프게 할 줄 난 미처 몰랐다

이것만은 알고가 너만 사랑했었던 단 한 남자였다고
너무 미련해서 너조차 지키지도 못했던 바보등신이었다
너 끝까지 내 곁에 남으면 더 힘들고 쓰러질지도 몰라
아주 잘한 거야 너를 자유롭게 해줄 사람이
네 곁에 올 거야, 네 곁에 올 거야

사소한 어떤 변명도 이제 하지 않을게 그런 표정 짓지 마 (슬퍼)
나는 단지 입을 닫고 너의 행복만을 바래주고 싶었어
그런 게 아닌데, no no no no no

찬바람에 후-하고 차가운 네 손 덥혀주던 날
내 가슴에 푹-하고 안겨 나눈 1년만의 첫 키스
난 나를 주고 말았다, 언제라도 그렇다

행복한 추억들을 내게 줘서 고맙다
넌 잊고 살아, 넌 모두 잊어버리고
걱정스런 눈빛으로 보지 마 난 괜찮아
언젠가 이 심장의 상처들은 아물겠지
언젠가 나도 좋은 사람 만나게 되겠지
잊어, 그래, 모두 떨쳐버리고 어서가라
내 이런 마음 다시 돌려 너를 잡아두기 전에 

습관처럼 나도 모르게 네게 전화 할지도 몰라
Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello?
네가 너무 보고 싶어서 네 집 앞에 있어도 냉정하게

credit: kimchihana @ soompi

http://moonlightunes.wordpress.com/2011/03/16/hangeul-romanized-translated-lyrics-to-dbsk-homins-before-u-go-mv/

First time attending a concert

Semalem Uyung di twitter nyuruh gue dan kawan-kawan ikut kuis BBLive buat ngedapetin tiket gratisnya--karena ada 2PM dan dia pengen liat Jason a.k.a Jang Wooyoung dan being a nice friend, dia ngajakin kita semua. Semalem sampe tengah malem semua orang *lebay* berusaha mengakses situs kuisnya, dan as expected, crash terus lah si situs itu. Uyung, Amey, Fanny dapet semalem. Jam 10 gue nyerah ikutan kuis karena banyak PR belom selesai. Off lah gue dari dunia maya.

Tahu-tahu tadi pagi, pas di kelas MPK Bahasa Inggris, Amey bawa berita heboh bahwa kuisnya masih bisa diikutin. Jadilah berbondong-bondong anak-anak #kor10 didaftarin ikut kuis. Sampai terakhir, kayaknya yang dapet tiket akhirnya lebih dari 15 orang deh.

Sebenernya gue nggak segitu ngefansnya sama 2PM sampai pengen banget nonton konsernya (mana cuma sebagai salah satu pengisi acara yang paling banyak tampil 3 lagu kali). Makanya gue sendiri bingung kenapa gue segitu hotnya ikut kuis itu. Padahal walaupun suka Taecyeon dan Chansung, tapi gue nggak segitu pengen liat mereka live *dan gue inget banget betapa dulu gue sendiri mengunderestimatekan 2PM karena mereka bikin 2AM terkesan underrated banget*  Kalo itu tiket gratis buat nonton JYJ, misalnya *KYAAAAAA /dies* atau 2AM minimal, masih bisa dipahami kenapa gue segitu berusahanya.

Setelah gue pikir-pikir, mungkin jawabannya karena satu kata setelah kata 'tiket' itu. GRATIS. Hahahahaha :D

Yang penting sekarang gue bersiap-siap memotret Taecyeon dan Chansung dari berbagai posisi (dan menghafalkan fan chant) serta mikirin gimana caranya pergi ke PRJ dan balik dari sananya dan cari tahu kapan itu konser mulai. Hehehehe.

Yuan sempet nyeletuk kalo pasti bakal ada banyak Hottest dadakan nanti, merujuk ke banyaknya Shawol dadakan gara-gara KIFF kemaren. Oh well, kita sendiri (para #kor10) pun termasuk Hottest dadakan, karena yang bener-bener truly loves 2PM kan Uyung doang. Bahkan Ara aja nggak tahu Taecyeon yang mana *OH MY GOD emangnya nggak pernah liat selama anak-anak pada menggila Dream High apaaa??* -_____________-" I myself, even though I like Taecyeon and Chansung, my liking to them is not as much as mine to Jinwoon and AM boys (don't even dare to compare it with Dong Bang boys). Tapi tentunya gue nggak mau melewatkan kesempatan untuk menikmati 'a show of half-naked idols' *kata Dyna* apalagi kesempatannya dikasih gratis.

Pertanyaan yang paling menggelitik gue sejak pertama denger 2PM bakal dateng ke sini adalah,

Akankah Indra Herlambang, fanboy no.1 Indonesia, dan kawan seperjuangannya di SS3 Singapore kemaren, Edric Tjandra, dateng menggila bareng para Hottest di PRJ tanggal 19 Maret besok? 

Hahaha :D

#prayforjapan

So the news said a big earthquake and tsunami hit Japan today.
The pictures and videos really made me shivers. However, do you know what crossed my mind the first time I heard the news?

Do Jun Matsumoto and other Arashi boys survive? Are Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu okay? How about Ryo Nishikido?

I know those are extremely silly and inappropriate but still, I can't help from not thinking about that.

#prayforjapan

March 9th

One of my favorite songs from Remioromen. Just can't help to post it today, one of my favorite day in a year, which also happens to be Kim Taeyeon's birthday :) 생일 축하해 언니!

流れる季節の真ん中で
ふと日の長さを感じます
せわしく過ぎる日々の中に
私とあなたで夢を描く

3月の風に想いをのせて
桜のつぼみは春へとつづきます

溢れ出す光の粒が
少しずつ朝を暖めます
大きなあくびをした後に
少し照れてるあなたの横で

新たな世界の入口に立ち
気づいたことは 1人じゃないってこと

※瞳を閉じれば あなたが
まぶたのうらに いることで
どれほど強くなれたでしょう
あなたにとって私も そうでありたい※

砂ぼこり運ぶ つむじ風
洗濯物に絡まりますが
昼前の空の白い月は
なんだかきれいで 見とれました

上手くはいかぬこともあるけれど
天を仰げば それさえ小さくて

青い空は凛と澄んで
羊雲は静かに揺れる
花咲くを待つ喜びを
分かち合えるのであれば それは幸せ

この先も 隣で そっと微笑んで

in the middle of the flowing seasons,
I suddenly feel the length of the days.
during the days when it is too busy,
you and I sketch out our future.

Placing their love on March's wind,
the sakura buds continue on through spring.

rays of an overflowing light,
little by little, warm up the morning.
After giving a large yawn,
I'm a little shy being by your side.

Standing at a new world's entrance,
I now notice that I'm not alone.

If I close my eyes, you are there.
under my eyelids you live.
How strong it could become
As for you and me, I want to be together

The dust carried by a whirlwind,
entwines with the laundry to be done,
Just before noon the white moon in the sky
I was somehow fascinated by how pretty it was.

Although there are things that don't go well,
If I look up at the sky
Even they seem small.

The blue sky is sharply clear
the sheeplike clouds quietly sway.
the joy of waiting for flowers to bloom
if it's sharing that with you, that is happiness.

In the future as well gently smile next to me.

If I close my eyes, you are there.
under my eyelids you live.
How strong it could become
As for you and me, I want to be together

taken from http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/3935/remioromen/sangatsu-kokonoka.html 

 

 

 

Ayah

Ayah,

19 tahun sudah Ayah menjadi pahlawanku,

panutanku,

dan kebanggaanku.

Mencintaiku dan menyayangiku

Memberikan segalanya hanya yang terbaik untukku

Membimbing dan mendidikku

dengan cara Ayah.

Yang terkadang tak bisa kumengerti,

terlepas dari pengamatanku,

tak tercerna oleh pikiran kecilku.

Ayah,

Cinta dan sayang Ayah padaku

akan selalu lebih besar

akan selalu lebih dahsyat

takkan pernah terkalahkan

oleh cinta dan sayangku pada Ayah.

Ayah,

kebanggaanku,

aku ingin

jadi kebanggaanmu.

Selamat ulang tahun, Ayah.

6 Maret 2011 — tahun ke 46

Fiction parade...

... And finally Interrogated II ends the fiction parade to celebrate my 19th year of life. Got to go to dream land since there are classes tomorrow *Oh! It's Min gyosunim class!

Jaa, once again, happy birthday to me and my twinnie!

*getting ready to sleep*
*getting ready to congratulate Saher on her 19th birthday right on March 4 10 pm Egypt time --> which is March 5 3 am WIB*


I LOVE MAGNUM AND HARVEST'S SWEET CAKE! ^^

Interrogated II

It’s been so long since the four gorgeous men showed up in front of me. I have never expected they will show up again because they will only showed up if I don’t live my life well—and I feel I’m living my life well now.

But then again, it’s Changmin sitting on the sofa in front of me. I can’t be wrong, it’s Changmin. I recognize his new haircut, the one for his latest album, which is only slightly different from his haircut for Best Selection. And the way he stares at me… it’s the look belongs to him only.

I can’t help but furrow my brows. Why is he here? What did I do wrong? Why is he alone?

He folds his arms, keeps our eyes contact, and stays silent. Oh, he’s giving the same tense even when he’s alone—the tense I’m familiar with, the tense of interrogation.

“Annyeong.” I greet him first. “Long time no see.”

“Yeah, long time no see.” His voice is cold.

“What brings you here? Why are you alone? Where are the others?”

“Just say it; you only want to know why Jinwoon is not here.”

I gasp. “I-I—“

“I thought you said you are my fan.”

“I am, as well as I am also fan of the other three.”

“But you were my fan at the first place.” He cuts me.

“Yes.” I answer firmly.

“I am your main bias—ah, no. I was your main bias, right?”

I don’t get what his point is, but I feel bitter in his voice. “What is it about?”

“I thought you’re loyal to me no matter what.”

“I am, I anticipate your comeback very much, and you know it.”

“But I am no longer your main bias, aren’t I?”

“What made you think like that? You are still my main bias, and you will always be.”

“You lie.”

“No, I’m not!” I start to feel agitated. “What’s wrong with you, really?”

“I should be the one asking that. What’s wrong with you that you quit being my fan and turn to Jinwoon?” he said in a breath.

I furrow. “I have always been a fan of you four, you, Shiwon, Key, and Jinwoon. There was never been a problem with that before and you four visited me, don’t you remember?”

“That time you didn’t see Jinwoon the way you see him now. I was still your main bias back then.”

“And you are still now.” I convince him desperately.

“No, I’m not. I can’t get it, really,” he unfolds his arms, “you say you will always keep the faith, along with those tons of our fans. But look at you. I don’t mind and I support you turn to other bands when we’re on hiatus. I let you be the others’ fan as well. But being your main bias… now that I’ve grown to be a much more handsome one, why do you shove me away?”

I sigh. “That’s it.” I inhale. “Now you’re very good-looking, tons of girls want you head over heel, while they didn’t even see you back then.”

This time it’s him furrowing. “I don’t get what you mean.”

“You know that compared to the other four in your band, your own fans were #5. But now after the whole things happened and you transformed into a more gorgeous man, your own fans are #2.”

“Well, that’s good. That means there are lots of people love me. You should be happy for me.”

“I am. But I can’t stand hearing those people claiming you are theirs.”

“You are childish.”

“Whatever. I’m not used to hear ‘Oh, my Changmin is so hot!’, ‘Ah, Minnie is very sexy!’. I used to be your only fan every time I met other K-Pop listeners.”

He remains silent.

“So when I met her, hearing her talking about you, claiming you… and the fact she knows more about you… it irritates me. It makes me like a loser. You know how much I hate losing. Liking you suddenly doesn’t feel fun anymore. I feel burdened.” I bit my lip.

He still doesn’t say a word.

“And there’s Jinwoon, who is in the same state as you were.” I exhale. “And I can feel the fun liking him as I felt when I liked you… that carefree feeling I missed…”

His look is hurt. I can feel it.

“However, you are always special for me… You’re my first.”

His gaze softens. “Guess I can’t do anything about being your main bias, then…”

“You are still my main bias, why can’t you believe it? It’s just I’m not showing my liking to you in the same way as before…”

He smiles bitterly. “I see. But I’m still used to your old way.”

I feel the room brightens. I sense he’s leaving anytime soon.

“You are still my passwords to my accounts.”

“Except your daehaksaeng account.”

“Yeah.” I grin. “I used you too but then I had to renew it so I have to use other’s name.”

“And it’s Jinwoon’s.”

I nod weakly.

“I got to go.” He stands up.

I stand up and walk toward him. “You are stunning, you know that?”

He chuckles. “I know.”

“So, are you still mad at me? You still think I’m disloyal to you?”

“Well…” he pauses, “promise me you’ll write more fics with me as the main character and I’ll forgive you. You wrote too much about Jinwoon.” He ruffles my hair.

I chuckle. “Okay.”

“Take care.”

“Send my greeting to the others.”

He hugs me. His hands and his body are cold. I wonder what he has been doing that he is that cold. His coldness transfers to my body.

“I love you.” He whispers. And with that, he vanishes.

I shiver. The cold air from the air conditioner feels too cold. I open my eyes and stare at sofa in front of me.

Goodbye my love, love, love

Take care my love, love, love

Even if the tears filling up, soak my whole body

Now goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Leave me and please be happy

One step, one step, you’re going farther away

Again, I forget to turn off my iPod.

* the part in italic is translation of FT Island's Love Love Love, taken from www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/39107/ft-island/love-love-love.html



Get Married, Dara! ch7

CHAPTER 7

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Jiyong and Park siblings arrived an hour later. His parents came with them too. They went directly to emergency room. Five minutes waiting in despair, a nurse came out. Dara stood up and walked up to her.

“How is she going? She’s alright, isn’t she?” Dara pestered her with questions.

“I’m sorry, it’s not my authority to inform you about Mrs. Park condition, but please, be sure our doctors inside are trying their best to help her. All we can do is pray for her safety.” She bowed slightly. “Now, if you excuse me.” She left.

Sanghyun stared at Dara with teary eyes. Dara patted his shoulder. “Don’t worry, Hyun-ah. Mom is gonna be alright.” She pulled him into her embrace. “She is tough, there’s no way she can be easily beaten by this.”

Jiyong stared at her. She was clearly trying to sound strong. Jiyong could see the girl who cried in her arms years ago. The quiver in her voice… She’s absolutely the same vulnerable girl trying to hide behind that stubborn petite body. Suddenly Jiyong felt the urge to wrap his arms around her and take over all of her wearies. Of all things in the world he hates the most, it is to see her beautiful eyes get teary. He’s willing to do anything to keep them shining. He doesn’t mind if that means having her looking irritated at him all day long.

No one came out of the door for the next couples of hours. Jiyong’s mother fell asleep on his husband’s arms. Sanghyun spaced out on Jiyong’s right, while on his left, Dara clenched her fists tightly.

Jiyong offered a glass of hot chocolate to Dara. “Here, Nuna. You haven’t eaten anything since the morning.” He turned to his right and offered Sanghyun another glass of hot chocolate. “You too, Sanghyun.”

Sanghyun muttered thanks and finished it in one shot. Dara ignored Jiyong’s hand and didn’t budge at all. Jiyong reached her hands and wrapped them around the plastic glass. “Drink it, Nuna. Aunty won’t like you to be sick.” Jiyong begged softly.

“Nuna, what if… What if Mom can’t make it?” Sanghyun asked in low voice.

“Don’t talk nonsense, Park Sanghyun!” Dara hissed in fury. “Mom is gonna be alright, you heard that nurse said they’re trying their best. Mom will never leave us, you gotta keep that in mind!”

“I was just trying to be realistic, Nuna…” Sanghyun said in the same weak voice. “What if she’s going after Dad…”

“She will not leave us!” Dara yelled frustrated. Her body was terribly shaking.

Jiyong held her hand and patted her back. “Calm down Nuna, calm down…”

Dara shook even more terribly at his soothing.

Minutes later, a doctor with tired face showed up. “Excuse me, are there any of you Mrs. Park’s children?”

Dara stood abruptly. “Yes, we’re her children. How is she doing?”

“Well… she’s awake now.”

Dara let out a relief sigh.

“But…” he hesitated to continue. “Her condition is not good.”

Dara froze. Sanghyun’s jaw dropped.

“What do you mean by her condition is not good?” Jiyong asked on behalf of Park siblings.

“She was hurt very badly and lost too much blood. The worst is her brain is also seriously injured. We have tried our best, but… we can do nothing about it, we’re deeply sorry…” the doctor bowed deeply.

“You… you are kidding, right?” Sanghyun asked in shuddered tone.

“I am so sorry, Sir.” He lowered his head. “Your mother is waiting for you inside, she wants to give her last words to you.”

“This can’t be happening…” she said lowly. Her knees went weak and she collapsed right into Jiyong’s arms.

“This way, please.” The doctor led them entering the emergency room.

Dara had never seen her mother as pale as that. She looked so pale, so sick, so weak, and so… lifeless. Sanghyun kneeled on her right, holding her hand tight. Jiyong brought Dara to her left side.

“My babies…” she spoke out softly and slowly. “Yah, Hyun-ah, don’t cry.” She gripped his hand back. “Be a good man, make a good family, and don’t forget to take care of your sister, okay? Make sure she pursues her own happiness…”

“Mom, why are you talking like this?” Dara cut her.

“I’ll soon leave you two and the world, my dear.”

“No, you’re not! You’re gonna be okay and stay with us! I’m gonna search other doctors to cure you—“

“Sandara, my dear, I know my time is coming. Aren’t you happy I’m gonna meet your father?”

Dara was out of words. Her mother reached for her hands.

“Find a man and be happy, my dear. Promise me. This is my last wish. Please, get married with someone you love.” She held her hands tightly. She then turned to Jiyong who was behind Dara. “Jiyong-ah…” she reached out for his hands too.

“Yes, Aunty?”

“Thank you…” she coughed. “Thank you… for always… be there for Hyun… and Dara…” she started to run out of breath. She clasped Jiyong’s and Dara’s hands together. “Can you… do a favor… for me?”

“Of course Aunty, what is it?”

“Please… Dara…” she had difficulties to speak. Her breaths were shortened and uneven. “Please… please—“ She couldn’t continue her sentence. She never could. The cardiograph had showed a firm static line.

Sanghyun immediately broke into tears. Dara only stared at her mother with blank expression. One, two teardrops rolled down her face, but she didn’t cry. She didn’t utter any word. She didn’t even budge an inch.

The nurses and doctors entered the room. Jiyong and Park siblings were asked to leave the room and take care of the administration. When Jiyong’s parents saw them, they hugged Sanghyun and Dara right away.

“Oh, my dear…” Jiyong’s mother hugged Dara tightly.

Dara patted her back and released herself from her hug. “I’m alright, Aunty. Can you please take care of Sanghyun? I’m going to settle up the administration.” Her voice was expressionless.

“Are you sure you can handle it, dear? Do you want me to come with you?”

Dara shook her head. “I’m fine, Aunty.” She headed to the ground floor. Jiyong watched her as she walked away. That shuddering back…

“Mommy, I’ll accompany Nuna.” He said before he paced up.

Right in front of the elevator, Dara stopped. Her whole body shook terribly. She leaned onto the wall. Mommy had also gone. She sobbed uncontrollably. Just before she was about to fall on her knees, someone caught her.

“You always have me, Nuna. I told you that earlier, didn’t I?” Jiyong said softly.

“Ji-jiyong.” Dara wiped her tears and tried to console her breath. “Why are you here? I can settle the administration by myself.” She released herself from his embrace.

“Aren’t you tired, Nuna?” He looked into her eyes tenderly. “Pretending to be strong all these times, aren’t you tired? Don’t you want to take some rest?”

She looked at him baffled.

“Someone isn’t called strong man for never seen crying nor feeling sad. It’s for being able to carry on his life after that.”

Dara avoided his gaze. Her body started trembling again.

“Do you really hate me so much that you don’t wanna show your true self in front of me, Nuna?” his voice sounded hurt.

She was even more baffled that she looked at him again. There, the playful Jiyong looked very miserable.

“I love you so much, Nuna. Ever since I knew the difference between boys and girls, I have loved you. I have always looked at you only. I know you are disturbed by me clinging on you and you don’t like me acting as your boyfriend, and I thank you because you didn’t forbid me to do that.” He lowered his head and took a deep inhale. “But I think I shouldn’t bother you anymore. I shouldn’t add your burden. I’m so sorry for all things I’ve done to you, Nuna. I will not do them again in the future.” He stared at her gently. “I will stop bothering you, Nuna.” He then turned his back and walked away.

Dara startled. What was that? Why did Jiyong suddenly talk such things? She saw his back slowly disappeared. Not knowing what’s gotten into her, Dara felt her legs snatching her body.

“Yah, Kwon Jiyong!” Dara yelled, stopping his steps. He turned to see her running to him. He looked at her furrowed. “What do you mean by those things?” she asked after catching her breath.

“Well, I was just speaking my mind…”

“You said I’ll always have you, you will not leave me, didn’t you?” she asked.

He nodded.

“Then why did you leave me? You said you will always be by my side, was that lie?” she asked frustrated.

“I will, Nuna, if you want me to.”

“Then why did you leave? Did I ask you to leave?”

“You don’t want me to leave then, Nuna?”

Dara was taken aback. “Well, no. At least not now.”

“Okay. I will not leave you.” Jiyong smiled. His face lightened a bit. “At least until you find a man you love and decide to marry him.” His smile went bitter.

She was at loss of words.

“When that time comes, I can’t stay by your side again, right Nuna? Because it’ll make things difficult for you and him.” He tried to look happy though he’s clearly not.

Dara felt her head aching.

“I don’t want to be your burden anymore, Nuna. So let me know when you have found the right man, I will quickly keep proper distant between us.”

She touched her aching head.

“I don’t wanna him misunderstanding us.”

“Stop it!” she exclaimed.

Jiyong raised one of his eyebrows.

“Why are you saying those things?” she asked weakly.

“Because I love you.” He said firmly.

“If you love me, then why do you want to leave me?”

“Because I don’t want the man you love misunderstands you and me.”

“Why should he?”

“Why?” Jiyong was perplexed. He scratched his head.

“Why should he misunderstand himself?” she asked slowly.

“Eh?” Took him some minutes to fully understand what Dara was trying to say. “What do you—“ his eyes went wide, his jaw dropped.

“Yes. I love you, Kwon Jiyong.” She said as she turned her gazed away. She couldn’t say those words looking at him. She was blushing madly.

“You—what? Can you repeat it, Nuna?” a big grin plastered on his face.

“Yah, don’t make me repeat it—“

He cut her off with his lips on hers. “I love you.” He whispered it sweetly and took her into his arms. “Thank you for finally saying it. You’ve made me waited so long…” he nuzzled his head on her hair. They stayed at the position for some time before Jiyong finally pulled out.

“Oh, we need to settle the administration!”

The two walked hand in hand to the ground floor. When they were in the elevator, Dara suddenly remembered something.

“Your words earlier, when we were in front of the elevator… What do you mean?”

“I don’t know either.” Dara saw his trademark playful self was on his face again. “I just said random things.”

Dara furrowed her eyes, unsatisfied with his answer. The way she stared at him said she demanded for further explanation.

Jiyong scratch his head. “Well… Aunty’s last wish is for you to get married soon. I know no matter how much you don’t want to get married, you will still find a man and get married at the end because it is her last wish. I don’t want you to marry another man, so I know I have to be quick.” His face started to blush. “I have to propose you before you meet another man.”

“That was a proposal?” Dara astonished.

“Well, literally that was only confirming that you love me too. I don’t want to propose you only to be objected. The real proposal is,” he took her hand, “this.” He kneeled in front of her.

“Sandara Park, will you marry me and be my soul mate for the rest of our life?” he asked sincerely.

Dara giggled at him.” You’re proposing me without ring or flowers? You’re so unromantic.” She made a face.

“They will be bought soon after we stepped out of this elevator, my dear Sandara Park, so why don’t you just answer to my proposal?”

“Umm, no ring, no flowers, well…” Dara pretended to be hesitant.

In one swift move, Jiyong pulled Dara so his lips were on hers again.

“I took that as a yes.”

I lost you, Mom, but thank you for giving me a husband.

THE END

Get Married, Dara! ch6

CHAPTER 6

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Days went by without Dara realizing the next day would be Christmas. She had just realized when she heard the news on television talking about people preparing their Christmas. Sanghyun was enjoying his coffee while watching the news. Dara looked around to find her mother, but she was nowhere to be seen.

“Hyunnie, where’s Mom?” Dara asked rubbing her eyes. She woke up late this morning.

“She went to the market. She said she missed something for her special food’s ingredients.” Sanghyun said without taking his eyes off the TV.

“What’s her special food this year?” Dara poured water to her glass and drank it. Their mother likes cooking, but since she doesn’t have enough time to elaborate her cooking in weekdays, she decides to cook ‘special food’—food she had never cooked before—every Christmas or other holiday.

“Don’t know, but it has octopus in it.”

Dara was fully awakened hearing the word octopus. “Really?”

Sanghyun nodded. “I saw octopus in the refrigerator.”

“Wow, I wonder what has gotten into Mom. She cooked octopus quite often these days, don’t you realize it?” she said as she fit herself next to her brother on the sofa.

“Of course, and I thank you for that.”

“Me? Why?” she asked in confusion.

Sanghyun turned to face his sister. “Oh, you don’t recognize it? She is luring you so you’ll agree to get married with someone from those set ups.”

Dara felt dumbfounded. “Dang, Mom.”

Her brother chuckled at her. “Hey, I’m curious too. Why don’t you just get married? Some men from those set ups are good, to be honest. I like that Taeyang guy.” He confessed.

“I haven’t met someone matches my preference yet.” Dara shrugged.

“Oh, really?” he asked in mocking tone. She looked at him questioningly.

“Come on sis, you haven’t met ‘someone matches your preference’?” Sanghyun made quotation mark with his fingers.

She tilted her head. She still didn’t get what her brother meant. He laughed at her dumbfounded expression.

“You like him, don’t you?” he shot her.

“Who?” she furrowed her brows.

“Jiyong hyung. You like him since we were kids. When he declared he likes you, you had liked him back.”

“Don’t talk nonsense.” Dara shifted her eyes to TV.

Sanghyun sighed. “You’re the one who should stop talk nonsense, Nuna. Stop denying your feelings. Do you think I can’t sense you enjoy all caring and attention he gave to you? Do you think I don’t know how your face slightly changes every time he said ‘I love you’ and other cheesy lines?”

Dara blushed at all facts her brother shoving her. So baby Sanghyun knows.

Sanghyun spoke up again seeing her kept silent. “I know he can make you happy. Hyung has never looked at other girl beside you. He will make a good rich husband.”

Dara laughed at his last line. “How can a jobless man be a rich husband?”

“Don’t underestimate him, Nuna. Hyung is one of top composers at YG Entertainment. He has been working there since he graduated from high school without anyone knowing. He is paid very well, better than regular composers.” Sanghyun explained.

Dara astonished. “H-h-how could he keep it secret? Uncle and Aunty… they don’t know?”

“No, they don’t. Well, composer doesn’t need to go to the office from 9 to 5. He doesn’t need to go to YG Building to send his composed songs; he can email it thanks to internet. He usually doesn’t engage with the recording either, but he told me his boss promoted him to be a junior producer, so later on he will need to go to YG Building quite often.” He explained further.

“How do you know that much of him?” Dara puzzled by his explanation.

“I was by his side when he was called by his boss, telling him he is promoted.” He said. “Ah, and if you ever wondered how could he got money to buy you flowers every Monday and give you that beautiful fluffy expensive coat on your last birthday, they were all from his salary. And my cool basketball shoes too.” He added.

Dara didn’t know what to say. “I don’t know.” She mumbled. “He’s too young …”

Sanghyun groaned. “Not that, please, Nuna! That is so lame! Age is nothing but number.”

“Oh, well…” She rolled her eyes.

“Come on Nuna, don’t let silly things hold you from your happiness.” He sighed. “I’ll appreciate it more if you said you don’t know how to confess to Jiyong hyung that you like him, or you don’t know how to face him after your confession, or you don’t know how to tell Mom and Aunty and Uncle that you love Jiyong hyung.” he shot series of options he could think about.

Dara blushed upon his sayings. “Yah, Hyunnie, stop teasing me…”

This time it’s Sanghyun who rolled his eyes. “Just quit pretending and hiding, Nuna. Hyung loves you for everything you are and he waits for the word ‘I love you’ come out of your mouth to him for years.”

Her face reddened. “Hyunnie, I’m really blessed to have a brother like you.” Dara said it in mocking tone. She couldn’t think of any other way to cover her shyness.

Sanghyun grunted at her mock, but he still pulled her into his embrace. “Be happy, Nuna.”

“Thank you, baby Sanghyun.” She said as ruffled his hair.

Their peaceful sibling moment was interrupted by the phone and the bell ringing at the same time.

“I’ll go get the phone, you open the door.” Dara said as she walked to the phone.

Sanghyun opened the door and saw Jiyong with his Santa hat and beard. He chuckled at the sight. “Hyung, it doesn’t suit you.”

“Who cares?” Jiyong replied calmly. “What is your mother’s special food this year?” he asked as he followed Sanghyun in.

Sanghyun shook his head. “Don’t know yet, but I think it will contain octopus. Mom went to the market to buy some missing ingredients a few hours ago, but she still hasn’t come back yet.”

Sanghyun stopped when he saw Dara sat down on the floor with blank expression and phone in her hand. He kneeled in front of her. “What’s wrong, Nuna?”

Dara didn’t answer. She kept blank. Sanghyun took the phone from her.

“Hello?” Sanghyun prepared himself for anything bad he would hear. Jiyong, on the other hand, sat next to Dara and tried to talk to her.

It didn’t take Sanghyun too long to know what made her shock to that state. “Hyung…” he called Jiyong weakly.

“What is it, Hyun?” Jiyong asked with worry all over his face. Dara didn’t even bug a bit by his shakes earlier.

“Mommy… They said Mom was hit in an accident… she’s in emergency room now.” Sanghyun said almost whispering. Tears rolled down his cheeks and he’s trembling.

Jiyong looked at the two siblings. He stung to see them this shaken. Well, it’s not like he wasn’t shaken either…

“Let’s go to the hospital now.” Dara commanded in whisper.

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